In my experience, eventually you feel heaven but in its midst, the death of the ego is like an explode star blinding you from seeing the glory of heaven. Its only once the stardust dissipates that you see what it was all for, that you are on the right path. I think that it will get easier as the ego takes more of a backseat and intuition drives.
Right now, feel like I’m dying and there seems no ideal way out. So I’m just going within, back to my intuition, to the signs I asked for, to my tarot cards, to myself to brace and weather the star death.
The ego is a magnificent star. She’s hard to ignore and her allure, confidence, and history with you is undeniable. Her shimmer is nothing compared to the glory of a galaxy. That is the spiritual self. That’s the real you, the soul.
The link to Jordan Peterson’s video is here.