My journey of self-realization started way back when I lived in Iowa City. I was dating a man, working for an insurance company, and struggling with depression.
I made a choice for me: move to Arizona and pursue my career alone.
About 3 months after I moved, my boyfriend at the time broke up with me because, quote “you don’t need me anymore.” That same week, I got demoted from the position I held at work.
This threw me into a life-threatening depression that took lots of therapy to climb out of.
Since then, I’ve been trying to find my purpose and myself.
Who am I?
The years I spent in Arizona were filled with experiments, blossoming, and empowerment. So many wonderful people helped me open myself up and helped me learn important lessons.
But it wasn’t all light. I was still stuck in shadow. I was clinging to that company that demoted me initially out of fear of financial stability. I was falling out of friendships with people I truly loved. I was rejected by groups who had pretended to want me included.
Once again, I realized so much needed to change and I held so much fear about it all. That’s when I began to plan my exit from my job and nomadic travels.
During this planning, I had socially isolated myself. I didn’t feel that the friends I still had left would understand what I needed to do. I was in so much pain, I didn’t dare risk someone bashing my dream. I also felt that there were people out there who did understand me.
I didn’t know your names and I couldn’t see your faces but I knew that the path my life was taking was the right way. I knew I would eventually find people who saw me, held no expectations of me, and wanted to support me in realizing my truest self.
I found that in @fit.for.service.
I’ve met people who have changed the way I look at myself.
I’ve met people who so embody that King and Queen energy that they raise me to met them.
I also see in others what I saw in myself and I can’t help but love them unconditionally.
Without @fit.for.service, I don’t know what my life would have looked like. I can’t even guess and I don’t want to.
@fit.for.service had given me something I couldn’t have planned for: an active conscious community.
I am eternally grateful to have been a part of this community.
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Where my life is taking me next remains to be seen. I feel pulled in multiple directions and I struggle to see how it will all come together.
What feels next on the list is international travel. I feel called to travel to Jamaica and Western and Southern Africa. I want to learn about ways of living and spirituality outside of the states.
I also feel that massage school is on the horizon.
I often feel overwhelmed, then I remind myself that there is no rush. Everything is as it should be.