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Firestarter

This message came to me during a plant ceremony a few nights ago. In the energetic height of ceremony, I was like…hell yeah! Now, a few days later…adjusting to my everyday life again…I’m like yeeeah. I’m having a similar experience with other messages that have come through during the recent Fit for Service summit. Integration, […]

Signs You Can’t Ignore: “The Monster I Created”

I woke up at 5 am today. I’d forgotten to turn my hiking alarm off from yesterday. I looked at my phone and no one has made any offers on the storage items I need to sell and I felt disappointed. I remembered a weird intense dream from last night and needed to write it […]

Triggered

I haven’t utilized tapping in over a year. It was something I used back when I was at my lowest and experiencing crippling depression. It helped. It opened my mind  to alternative healing. Today, I needed some healing. My root chakra was triggered by realizing I’m in a city that doesn’t support my nomadic lifestyle. […]

The Fool

Whats difficult about this current phase of awareness, healing, and rebirth is that I have an audience here to witness it. I’m not just at home by myself. I’m surrounded by people. I’m active on social media. There is no where to hide. And I remember making it very hard for me to hide. My […]

My Journey to Fit for Sevice and Where I’m Headed Next

My journey of self-realization started way back when I lived in Iowa City. I was dating a man, working for an insurance company, and struggling with depression. I made a choice for me: move to Arizona and pursue my career alone. About 3 months after I moved, my boyfriend at the time broke up with […]

This is the first line of my personal ethos.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀It reminds me why I’m roadtripping while technically homeless, and jobless.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀In the face of heart-pounding anxiety, I see the work.⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀When I’m trapped in the mirrors of trauma of my mind on a mushroom trip, I smile and laugh with gratitude. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀What is it all for…this life…if not […]

“Split”

I find myself clinging to the old me the me that I’ve been the me that I was a moment ago picking up old emotions with farmiliar feels and faces. I slip into the established me like a well-worn pair of jeans though now I’ve changed shape and wearing them wearing that old self feels […]

“Growing”

The “I” is changing. Each layer that comes off burns away slowly. Growing Pains. With the lighter in my hand I go back and forth with myself about what I will do knowing that I must set a part of myself free from the hold of the old. Its inevitable. At least thats how it […]

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