Yesterday, I was reading some posts by a motivational personality and I was inspired. Inspired to do the work needed, to be my authentic self, to give 100 percent.
Then, I started to feel depressed. It was 6pm, I’d just taken a long relaxing bath while listening to an audio book. I had a tension headache from work. I didn’t have the energy to do any more work but I really wanted to. So bad that I couldn’t stop thinking about it and I started to feel bad about myself. I was mad that I wasn’t working because my cups were empty. I couldn’t enjoy watching a show with Jason because I was thinking about how I wasn’t writing or creating something.
I was trying to be present but I was struggling to change my mindset.
I told Jason how I was feeling, not that I was hiding it. He asked me to recall everything I’d done today.
I work up early and wrote down my dreams and did my gratitude journal. I wrote a blog post. I drove to work while listening to an audio book. I worked 8 hours straight without a lunch break so I wouldn’t have to work on Christmas Eve. I drove home listening to an audio book.
As Jason reminded me, rest is essential. It’s the down time that allows our subconscious to process our day do that when we are working the answers, solutions, and ideas come to us.
So there I was, lying in bed, cuddling my teddy under the blankets, and writing this post. I felt a warm glow expanding inside of me after Jason’s pep talk.
I am blessed.
I have a creative mind that always ready to go.
I have a loving partner who supports me in all my endeavors.
I have time and space to have fun, relax, and rest.
I don’t want a life where I work 24/7 and can’t relax enough to be present and have fun.
I want it all and I have it all.
On this Christmas Eve, I am thankful for all that I have, all that I can give, and all that I am.
I hope you have a Merry Christmas and a Happy Holidays and that you spend this time doing whatever the fuck you want!